free time

i took the liberty of skipping class today to write this post.

as i was walking home from uni, i began to ponder about the past. to be exact, an incident that happened to me while i was searching for a house to rent, since i'm moving out of the hall soon.

i don't know what went wrong or whose fault was it. i think nobody's at fault, it's just we're not fully prepared to face that kind of situation. imagine how would you feel if you're 120% confident that you're going to get the house you wished for, even made an arrangement with the owner and get all the essential documents ready asap, yet when you went to the agent, they told you, "i'm sorry, the house was leased 10 minutes ago."

i felt like crap! i've put in so much effort for this and that's what you have to say? 10 minutes ago? i bet nobody would stand for such excuse. and so i tried calling the house owner, but to no avail. i couldn't get through. my other housemates (formerly) kept asking questions to the male receptionist since we all didn't believe that the house was gone just a moment ago. and they did it a proper manner and tone too.

now here's the most sickening part.

the guy answered, "what do you want me to do?! i told you the house was gone! gone! i can't do anything about it."

upon hearing that, i was kind of shocked, a bit. well, i'd never thought he would respond that way, not in such tone perhaps. since from what i heard, everyone here is very professional when it comes to their work and they'd always respect their customers. and what did i do? what did all my friends do? there was silence in the air for a while.

at that very moment, i thought of firing him back with curses and jinx (as if) but i thought, hey, he's not worthy to argue with. why should i fight him? my fight or flight responses were telling me to smack him right on, but the other part of myself asked me to calm down and avoid unnecessary commotion.

so while on my way back from uni, i wondered, what would have happened, if i followed my aggressive instinct and argued with the receptionist. would it produced a better outcome or vice versa? i guess i'll never know now. the past is the past and there's no way i can turn back time. however, what i do know is i will gain satisfaction and at the same time, humiliation. hey, that's not so bad right?