Saturday, April 25

saban hari

saban hari, aku menjalani rutin harian.

saban hari, aku buat apa yang aku telah buat sejak entah berapa lama aku pun tak ingat.

saban hari, aku baca berita tentang malaysia, mesti keluar pasal kerajaan ni, kerajaan tu.

saban hari, aku naik bosan sampai saban hari.

exactly. i'm currently officially lazy to my wits end. i don't know why i felt this way. do people really have limits for being hardworking or diligent?

before this, i've been struggling to keep up with my course. everything i did was at the last minute. although it helped me progressed, but the results weren't as good. and i lagged far behind my other coursemates.

perhaps i've reached my limit of trying and i just couldn't keep up anymore. at this rate, i wouldn't survive in my studies. i know that, but i just couldn't force myself to change the habit. what should i do?

everyday, i've been doing the same thing i did for the past 20 years. learning.

it's an ongoing process throughout your whole life. it doesn't just comprise of the stuff you learn for your degree, or at school. little things like the first word you ever said, things that you see with your eyes, when you first start walking, go to school, etc. all that is part of the learning process. if not, you wouldn't know how to do it in the first place.

but if you're sick of learning, then what will happen?

i need a stimulus. i need an inspiration. and both are what i shall get.

**
kata-kata pegawai JPA semasa sesi 'briefing' sebelum 'fly':

'...... Kamu di hantar belajar ke luar negara, membawa imej negara kita. Kamu adalah sebagai 'small ambassador' yang akan dilihat dan dinilai oleh orang luar. Apa yang kamu tunjuk, itu yang orang akan fikir pasal negara kita. ...... '

**
that is among the words i remembered from the briefing.

it is definitely an honour to be representing your country, even as a mere young student, going abroad seeking knowledge. but it is not an easy task. even worst when you reached your limit of trying and studying. still, i shall not quit, as i am not a quitter. may i regain my composure, and work my way to the top.

'now, gentlemen, let us do something today which the world may talk of hereafter' -Cuthbert Collingwood

1 comment:

~Biotech Boy~ said...

http://chedet.co.cc/chedetblog/2009/03/pengajaran-dan-pembelajaran-sa-1.html#more

maybe u can get it some enzyme here..

life just like a game..u have mission to settle down..like DoTa...=p

enjoy ur study man..u can do it.. =)